Thanksgiving

Well, tomorrow is the day we give thanks.  I am having a hard time.  I truly have so much to be thankful for but I am drowning right now.  I can list all the Lord and his servants have done for us this past year.  I can think of all that I thought would never happen and has.  I can breath easier knowing that I have been taken care of.  I don't feel strong.  People ask about the holidays and I don't feel like I have been stressing.  Then I think about it and know that I have.  As the holidays approach I am irritable.  I am not sleeping.  I am short fused (God please grant excess favor to my children as they have to live through this).  I have a plan and I am working the holiday plan but I am tired.  I find no joy.  It is all obligation.  Tomorrow we will travel to my moms and I will be thankful.  I will sit at the table and I will remember years gone past when he was there.  I will think about all who have stepped out to love on us.  I will be grateful.  I will relearn Thanksgiving.  I will remember never to take anything for granted.