Offense

We are told that offense can block all of our blessings.  Offenses happen, we are not to pick them up.  It is called the Bait of Satan.  I am struggling not to be offended.  There are people that I put expectation on during this trial  in my life and they did not meet those expectations.  I know Pastor Mark says expectations lead to disappointment which lead to offense.  Don't put expectations on people and then  they can't fail you.  I am human.

There are people in my life that seemed to disappear when this got tough.

There are ministries that ignored my hurt and pain.

There are "prayer warriors" who never prayed with me.  They claimed to pray for me, but never with me (even when asked).

There were opportunities to make me feel valued that went unnoticed.

This is not a post where I will counter with the blessings that have happened.  The truth is most of them were provision.  A need I know.  I am talking about the people who could have been there for me.  Shoulders to cry on.  Peace in the storm.  My needs have been met for my children and my home.

I have felt deserted as a woman.  I am offended.

My prayer is to not let this jade me to much.  I am asking that somehow I can find grace for the offenders.  A few have hurt me deeply.  I know people are busy with their own lives and for me to expect to be a priority to them is selfish.  I guess I feel like selfish was ok during this season.  I have learned how to be something better to others.

Praying against the offense. 

It is hard to do.  I feel it deeply.